A poem for the soul

Its been quite a long time right since i last blogging? Haha my life has been
Prettyyyy busy for this few years.acewah hee
After a long time.i just wanted to share a poem that i wrote myself.
It is a biopoem

NIGHTRAINBOW (Moonbow)

A nightrainbow,
Exists in darkness, shedding light, bringing colours and joy
Child of the moon,
Lover of the sun,
Who feels abandoned because of the darkness,
Who needs acceptance to live the life,
Who would like to see changes in the way people perceives things,
The resident of nature,
Nightrainbow, the forgotten beauty

Private encampment

It hurts like hell to remind my self every few minutes, to start abandoning u juz as wut u r doin to me.. I hate counting the time..i'm afraid of future.. 

Deep inside, i still hoping that u wont abandone me..
You will be someone so forgiving and warmhearted..
But i guess i cant put my hopes high aite? Cuz when i fall,there wont be Anyone to catch me again..

I guess this is the moment where my bestbuddy is my own tears..
Crying alone to screamout my frustration i had..
N i bet.. U will be JUST like him.. U wont care about others but yourself only..
:'(

Satu sisi

Kenapa perlu rasa sedih sedangkan terang lagi nyata tiada daya usaha untuk membuktikan sayang?
Ada yang merasakan diam adalah lebih baik untuk menyelesaikan masalah.
Mungkin jawapanya YA dalam isu2 lain tetapi dalam perhubungan, diam hanya membawa kemusnahan..
Tiada manusia yang suka dipulaukan.. Apatah lagi oleh insan yang tersayang.
Selain diam,ego juga menjadi pemusnah kasih sayang...
Nampaknya gampang sekali menulIs rasa..tapi adakah pernah terfikir akan pembaziran air mata yg berlaku untuk insan yang tidak meletAkkan usaha untuk menyelamAtkan sebuah rasa?
Pedih dan peritnya...
Membuatku terkenang akan rasa lalu..
Saat diri setia menunggu dgn penuh pengharapan dan kepercayAan..
Mustahil ia akan berlaku lg.. Kerana kepercayaan yg terlalu tinggi,hati dikecewakan dan mengambil masa hamPir 3tahun unt kembali bahagia..
Tiada pernah berkata dusta..tiada pernah berjanji kosong..
Maka nya, kenapakah hanya sisi emosiku yang terlihatkan?
Dalam duka aku bgn berjuang..melawan ketakutan dan kesakitan..
Masih murahkah nilai kasih sayang dan cinta yang bersemi?
Sehinggakan yg terlihAtkan hanyalah sisi emosiku?
Bagaimana pula dgn sisi diriku yang sentiasa ingin bahagia di sampingmu?
Sisi yang menyintaimu sepenuh hati?sisi yang sentiAsa ingin baiki komunikasi kita..
Bukankah itu semua tanda aku sayang dgn perhubungan ini?
Dan ada yg lebih rela mendiam..
Tidak bernilaikah untuk berjuang demi syg di hati?
Atau semua ini hanya mimpi? Cerita kita hnya mimpi..
Lihat ke dalam mata hati..
Carilah cintaku di situ..
Kekecewaan makin panjanh dengan kesABaran yg makin menipis..
Sungguh aku cinta..tapi andai terpaksa melepaskan, aku hnya mampu diam tidak berdaya..

hey hey hey!! ^^
this is a special shout out and dedication for my beloved! ^^

Happy Birthday dear..

Sweet 23! (dah x berapa nak sweet dahhh! :P )

It's an early wish since i have classes tomorrow :P

and an early wish according to Australian GMT +3 hours from Malaysia

Lots of Love...

XOXO

expectation kills

i've been avoiding blog space for almost a year.
not that i dont have any interest in sharing anything but i've been avoiding from sharing my feelings and thoughts
i find it pretty annoying when i have a consistent stalker meddling in my life and keep spreading stupid rumors.
it pissed me off like hell..
yeah i've just said i tried to avoid as hard as i can.
i tried to take care of everyone's feelings.
i dont wanna hurt my loved ones..
but..
yeah there is always but!
they seems to be enjoying themselves in pissing me off..
and i cant help hating them with my utmost feelings..

for that,i hate myself back because i know deep inside,this is not the real me..
but my heart have been torn apart critically..
they keep hurting me day by day..
sometimes,i wonder, what fault did i do to them and their family?

nobody asked to be born lack with everything..
gosh man..
currently, all i can say is that..sampai mati aku tak kan dapat maafkan mereka sekeluarga...
atas setiap kata dusta yang disebarkan..
atas setiap penghinaan yang terhambur..
dan setiap rasa kesakitan yang dihadiahkan..
i hoped Allah will repay ur family as much as u gave us..
but i dont want Him to hurt my friend...
i just want Allah to show it to you..yes only you...and her..
but life always has different ways to pay for wrongdoings aite..
for my beloved friend,i always pray that he will be given strength..........

seriously,because all of you..
i dont even know myself anymore..
thank you for all the pain..
i'll try my best to live with all ur harsh words..
with tears in my eyes, i will continue smiling and continue walking my life..
i wont let myself be hurt anymore.. :(

start anew forgetting and letting go.. ^^

heya!
fuhhhh berabuk berdebu smua ada kat sini..
its been quite a long time since i last fill something in this blog...
been very busy though...
a very hectic life is coming ahead too this time..
when it is a hols, i would prefer to spend my holidays to the fullest..
so,no time for my blog anymore..
hihihi

but this morning
8:31am australian time..
i would love to thank all my beloved ones for making my life perfect and for always being there no matter what..
thanks for celebrating my birthday too in the middle of the nite..
thanks thanks and bunch of thanks to all of u..yessss all of u :)
u know ur self...

jeles much? haha

diz choc cheese cake is yummiliciouss!!

after this, i think i have to ask AE to teach me how to make this cake..

i was touched when i saw this cake..

she knew that i am a crazy maniac towards choc..

and she made me a choc cheese cake..

oreo biscuit base,choc cheese cream, decorated with kit-kat choc..

haha

lucky me for having her as my besties eh?

;)

thanks everyone ^^

AE and me at cornetto and Ubar Booth..

n its free using this photobooth!

yeahh my uni rox!

and aa.....

i'll be posting a special dedication later by next week..

a special one indeed ;)

Faith is hard to gain..Don't give-up!

Taktau nak cakap apa,bila tengok azie,teringat kat dia...bila tengok dia,teringat kat azie..tak boleh lekang.sorry,at times saya terkedu bila tengok kad yang korang pernah bagi kat saya tu.jadi blank, macam-macam saya rasa..da tak leh hepi macam dulu..tak tau kenapa....

Ya Allah..banyak hati yang bersedih atas kelakuan kami...aku rasa bersalah sangat-sangat....kami masing-masing mengelak diri..tak bagi peluang untuk berbicara hati ke hati...

kedua-dua pihak seolah-olah mengalah..sepertinya dengan mengikut rentak masing-masing bakal menyelesaikan segala masalah...

atau aku sajakah yang berfikiran sebegitu?

i seek guidance from Allah..i'm afraid to say anything that might hurt other people..

enough with all the harsh words around..i hate to see everyone i cared for and loved live in sadness...

Ya Allah,ujian apakah ini..

lamanya masa yang aku ambil untuk aku sedar kesilapan pilihan yang aku buat...

dan di saat aku sedar akan segala yang terjadi..

aku buntu untuk memperbaiki kembali...

bimbinglah hati hamba-hambamu ini Ya Allah..

kami bersahabat kerana-Mu...kami berkasih sayang sebagai hamba Allah keranaMu jua...

hati hati ini dambakan syurgaMu..

dan dengan apa yang terjadi ini,kami seolah-olah jauh dari hidayahMu ya Allah..

bantulah kami untuk perbaiki hubungan sesama manusia..

janganlah jadikan hati hati kami yang cenderung untuk memutuskan silaturrahim..

perbaikilah akhlak kami semua ya  Allah...

hanya kepadaMu kami memohon..

amin..

I put a lot of faith in you and him..really,nak sangat kita jadi macam dulu

Ya Allah,engkau lebih mengerti hati hati hambamu ini...kau lembutkanlah hati semua yang terlibat..berikanlah hidayahMu kepada kami semua..berikanlah petunjukMu...bantulah leburkan sikap yang dikejiMu...

AMINN...

tulus ikhlas dari hati insan-insan yang diujiMu.